LINDSAY LOHAN ADMITS SHE WAS IRRESPONSIBLE, WANTS CAREER BACK

Wednesday, September 01 2010 05:13

Shortly before beginning her jail sentence, Lindsay Lohan admitted to Vanity Fair that she's been "irresponsible" in the past, but is now desperate to get her career back.

Although she told the magazine that she's "not making excuses," Lindsay pointed fingers at the tabloids and her father when identifying the root of her problems. Of her first few years in Los Angeles she said, "It was very go-go-go and I had a lot of responsibility; and I think just the second I didn't have structure anymore -- I was 18, 19 -- with a ton of money and no one really here to tell me that I couldn't do certain things . . . And I see where that's gotten me now, and I don't like it." The tabloids were "really scary and sad . . . I would look up to those girls . . . the Britneys and whatever. And I would be like, I want to be like that."

As for her dad -- who publicly claimed she had a drug problem -- Lindsay said, "I think my biggest focus for myself is learning how to continue to get through the trauma that my father has caused in my life."

Going forward, Lindsay said, "I want my career back. I want the respect that I had when I was doing great movies. And if that takes not going out to a club at night, then so be it. It's not fun anyway. I don't care what anyone says. I know that I'm a damn good actress. And I know that in my past I was young and irresponsible -- but that's what growing up is. You learn from your mistakes."

Other highlights from the interview:

On rumors that she's an alcoholic: "If I were the alcoholic everyone says I am, then putting a SCRAM bracelet on would have ended me up in detox, in the emergency room, because I would have had to come down from all the things that people say I'm taking and my father says I'm taking-so that says something, because I was fine. I think everyone has their own addictions and hopefully learns how to get past them"

On her alleged drug use: "I've never abused prescription drugs. I never have-never in my life. I have no desire to. That's not who I am. I've admitted to the things that I've done-to, you know, dabbling in certain things and trying things 'cause I was young and curious and thought it was like, O.K.,' cause other people were doing it and other people put it in front of me. And I see what happened in my life because of it."

On courtroom drama after sentencing: It was "heartbreaking" see (her sister) Ali cry. As for her dad, who was present for her sentencing, she said, "The worst part of it is you turn around and you see your dad crying and normally you'd be, like, happy that your father's there. But then he has to go and do an interview right after."

On hanging out with the wrong crowd: "So many people around me would say they cared for the wrong reasons. A lot of people were pulling from me, taking from me and not giving. I had a lot of people that were there for me for, you know, the party."